I've heard it all!

Yesterday, a well meaning brother, approached me at church to give me some (a-hem) advice. He let me know that I just couldn't claim these headaches. He believed that if I just didn't claim the pain then I wouldn't have it... *crickets*

Also in this week a sister, meaning well I'm sure, told me that I just needed to step out in faith and attend a women's event and "give the devil a headache". This was texted to me when under the influence of pain medicine I couldn't lift my head off a pillow, nor stand water trickling over my head to wash my hair, much less drive myself to the church and hear a bunch of women chattering.

*SIGH*

I have said this before, but while I am no Job, there are definately times that I can relate to him. Remember when his three 'friends' came to give him some 'advice' not having any clue what the heck they were talking about in the first place? Yeah...

You know, I know that God works for the good of those that love Him and are the called... I'm not worried about being in pain, but it IS rather inconvienient. I have missed days of work, church, my family, etc. I've become somewhat of a recluse holed up in my house with not much of a social life. I AM battling depression and exhaustion from being kept awake or woken up with a head on the verge of explosion, but I know without a shadow of a doubt that God has a purpose and a plan in it all. I do NOT accept that I have somehow brought this on myself. Denying that I can't walk straight isn't going to suddenly make my head clear up. Forcing myself to attend things or do things to please other people isn't going to heal me, cause trust me - I DO that. Several days I have to FORCE myself out of bed to play mommy and wife because how fair is all this to my family? I force myself to church, to work, to the mundane tasks like grocery shopping - but no healing yet.

One thing I know is that I am able to relate/witness whatever you want to call it to others batteling health problems. Now I'm not talking about people that have stumped their toe. I'm talking about people that have suffered with health issues for years, seen their lives change before their eyes, and had no one to rely on but God. You know why? Cause I've been there!! Walked through that fire! Like a Hebrew boy, God and I are still dancing in THAT flame. What annoys me is the people who, meaning well, try to offer up advice having no idea what they are talking about. I'm sure that God has allowed them to face things in their lives that they can relate to others about that I never will, but this... well, this I just wish they would give me NO advice rather than BAD advice! LOL

But, really all I'm doing right now is griping and complaining and really what I need to be doing is asking God for grace. Thus far He's done a great job of supplying me with enough to bite my tongue when people are a wee bit ignorant, and I just caught myself getting a little impatient yesterday. So forgive me, God. People never know what to say so they often say the wrong thing. I know that none of these people mean any harm, and help me to never be offensive with my tongue.