I try not to be aggrevated... really I do...

But sometimes, this ol' flesh just gets the best of me. I get tired of being in pain. I get tired of being sick. I get tired of saying and hearing, "Well, I/you probably shouldn't do ___________ because of your headaches... because of the surgery..." I'm 25! I want to be 25! I want to stay up late and wake up early and be sleep deprived like everyone else my age. I don't want to take 5-6 pills a night out of my nifty pill box designed for someone 3x my age. I want to go to the beach and swim in the ocean. I want to ride roller coasters and listen to my music cranked up loud. I don't want to spend anymore days/nights clutching my head in pain, or propped up on pillows because I can't move my neck. I don't want my children to see their mom crying, weak, and barely able to walk down the hallway. I want to be a "normal" wife for my husband and not have to depend on him to take the reigns when I'm having a "bad" day. I don't want to have 3 doctors, not including the 1 doctor that is my girlie doctor. I don't want to have MRI's scheduled on my calender like they are birthdays or something. And I don't want to complain about it. I try very hard to stay upbeat and positive, but some days it just gets the best of me. I think that's okay too. Apostle Paul got aggravated at the thorn in his side. Read 1 Corinthians 12:7-9. I don't know exactly what his "thorn" was, although I am lead to believe he battled health issues because he spoke of his "infirmities". But whatever the issue was, Paul asked God to take his "thorn" away three times. But God didn't because:
2 Corinthians 12:9 "And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me..."

So I know that things could be worse (they have been) and I know that I shouldn't feel aggravated, but I'm having a day like Apostle Paul was having where I'm just annoyed. So let me vent in peace. LOL